Two years! It seems like 20 since I saw your beautiful smile, felt your loving hug or heard you say "I love you mama". In terms of pain, it feels like 2 hours!! It hasn't gotten any easier, living without you. I know you wouldn't want me to live the way I'm living, but I am helpless to change it. I'm on medical leave from my job...just can't do it. The pain and sorrow is just too much to bear. Maybe if I knew "why" it would be easier to accept, I don't know.
The older Gabriel gets the more like you he looks and acts. It's amazing how much his personality is like yours. He even has some of the same mannerisms. He knows you are in heaven (except he says "hebben"). When he sees a pickup truck, sometimes he will say "truck, my Daddy's truck!?" It breaks my heart but at least I know he knows about you. I will do all I can to make sure he always knows who you were and how much you loved him!!
It's so UNFAIR my son!!! I don't understand why God took you! I'm so sick of hearing "God took him because he was special" or some other "good meaning" sayings. Yes, you were special---to your family that needs and misses you so badly! God could have waited for you, if only he would have.
I am not the person I was 2 years ago. I can never be the same again. I am broken. So broken! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank You to all Visitors / Judy Dollar (Mother) I just wanted to say Thank You to everyone who has visited this site and left a tribute or lit a candle! Keeping Travis' memory alive means so much to me! This website, the tributes and the candles is one way of doing that. Again, Thank You for helping to keep his memory alive! I love you all!
Happy Birthday, Baby / Momma 25 years ago today, I gave birth to you; never dreaming that in just 23 1/2 short years, I would say goodbye to you forever. It's been 14 months and 11 days since God took you from us. It still hurts like it was yesterday!
All day today, memories of you from birth, up to the day you left, have played over and over in my mind, like a video on repeat play. I know you would want me to remember the good things, the good times and good memories; and I do. I cherish them! But the pain is still so strong and sharp. Not a day--hardly a moment-- goes by that I don't think of you.
I still don't understand, and guess I never will, why God saw fit to take you away. But I do know, I would rather have had the wonderful 23 years I had than to have never had you at all!! You gave me so many wonderful memories. Like your 16th birthday! You sent me a dozen yellow roses, that you paid for from your part time job. You were so proud that you could do that! And I was so surprised and touched. You made me cry, then you cried too! But that's the kind of person you were--always thinking of everyone else.
What a wonderful, beautiful, loving person you always were. From a child all the way to a man--always thinking about others. You were always the peace maker in the family. You kept us together, solid. It's so hard without you! But somehow I have to find the strength to keep going. I know you want me to.
Sometimes I sense your presence or "hear" you talking to me. I know that you have been with me in the past 14 months. It has been those moments that have brought me comfort and kept me strong. I pray that you will continue to make that connection.
Again, happy birthday baby!! I love you! ----Momma
my brother / Andrew Dollar (brother) I know you may think that I was just a brother to travis but to me he was like a dad. He would take care of me when i was hurt and even when i wasnt hurt.And i really REALLY miss him so much and every night before i go to bed i would break out and cry.sometimes I would go into the restroom at school and start crying for no apparent reason.and for a couple of days now I have had some pain in my chest and i didnt know what it was but now I know.The pain comes from a broken heart and a broken heart is very hard to mend and I dnont know if mine will ever heal because this this is just to hard for me to handle and sometimes I see Travis in his son gabe and it makes me cry when i see him
To Travis... / Jennifer Blizzard (Wife) I couldn't sleep again tonight. I'm trying so hard but it's just not easy. My birthday came and went. I felt you kiss me with the wind and hug me with the warmth of the sun. I heard you everytime someone said happy birthday. I wanted to go to the cemetary and lie on the grass that grows over the spot where i'll one day forever sleep. I wanted to be close to you. Gabe said his first word on the three month anniversary of your death. Daddy. I know you smiled from Heaven when you heard that. I miss you. I love you. Forever. It's me and you against the world, remember? Me and you... Everything I am...everything I ever was...I saw it reflected in your eyes. Never was I more beautiful than when you looked at me. I've aged three years in the last three months. I see a distorted image in the mirror now. I wear these past three months like a halloween mask of some old lady. Sadness has lined my face. Smiles seem forced now. Will I be rewarded in Heaven with a youthful body? Will I be the woman you married, or will I be weathered by life when you see me once again? It's these things I wonder when I can't sleep at night. I miss you. I love you. Forever....
HE ONLY TOOK MY HAND / Momma Last night while I was trying to sleep, My son's voice I did hear. I opened my eyes and looked around But he did not appear. He said, "Mom you've got to listen, You've got to understand. God didn't take me from you, Mom He only took my hand. When I called out in pain that day, The instant that I died, He reached down and took my hand, And pulled me to His side. He pulled me up and saved me From the misery and pain My body was hurt so badly inside, I could never be the same. My search is really over now, I've found happiness within, All the answers to my questions and dreams And all that might have been. I love you and miss you so, And I'll always be nearby. My body's gone forever, But my spirit will never die! And so, you must go now, Live one day at a time. Just understand God did not take me from you, He only took my hand.
Happy Birthday Travis / Denise Kneale (connected by angels )
Happy Birthday dear Travis, have a wonderful day with all our Angels, lighting up our skies with your celebrations. Stay close to your precious family leaving small signs of your love, peace and strength. Love Never Dies.
Merry Christmas My Son / Judy Dollar (Mother)Read >>
Merry Christmas My Son / Judy Dollar (Mother)
Merry Christmas, Baby!! It's the second Christmas without you. I wasn't able to do anything last year, didn't celebrate at all. This year I've tried to pull myself together for everybody and "celebrated". Mostly, I know that it is what you would want me to do. I decorated and put up the trees. I know you love this time of year so much. But now you're celebrating Jesus' birthday with Him. I'm sure you're in more awe and wonder there than you ever were here.
I'm cooking a huge dinner today. I even cooked a 12 layer homemade chocolate cake like Granny used to make. That's what Matthew wanted---either that or a Red Velvet. I just couldn't make myself do the red velvet knowing that it was your favorite.
Jennifer and Gabe are coming this morning. I know that you will be watching from heaven. I will try to be strong and not cry when he starts opening his presents but I make no promises. Yes, I put a light up sword in his stocking ; a tradition you should have been able to carry on.
It's a bittersweet day baby. But I know in my heart that you will be with us in Spirit, watching over us and celebrating too. Words cannot tell you how badly I miss and love you, but I know you now know.
Merry Christmas, baby. I love and miss you with all my heart!!!!! Momma
Judy I am so sorry. / Sherry Kowtko (Friend of Judy )Read >>
Judy I am so sorry. / Sherry Kowtko (Friend of Judy )
Judy I lit a candle for Travis today. I had no idea all this had happened. I have known you for so long and yet I didn't know. The God we serve is a big God and allthough we don't understand why things happen he does. He had and will continue to take care of you. God Bless you and your family. I know Travis will be missed greatly. If you need anything please call me. Close
I ask the Shepherd's tender care for you today. / Dan King Sr (Met Joe in CMA )Read >>
I ask the Shepherd's tender care for you today. / Dan King Sr (Met Joe in CMA ) 9-27-07, 7:00 a.m. - I picked up the site from your email message re the newsletter for CMA. It is well done and a beautiful tribute to your son. I cannot know the depth of sorrow of having to say good-bye (from this life) to a son or daughter. But I care about you in your knowing. --Dan Close
I got to this site about yahoo and I was so sorry for all of you but I really thought, that he is not dead, because he still lives in so many hearts, so he will never be forgotten, it seems like he is still right in the middle between you all.
I would just like to tell you what a wonderful and loving family your are and I do hope, you will keep on thinking and talking about him, because that will let him stay alive in your hearts.
Kindness/ Jo Graham (friend of mom )
Dear Travis: From just looking at your photo's I see a real kindness a tenderness you do not see in a lot of people ...Which is a blessing to all around.. when they can feel the kindness and contentment just looking at some one and not ..Having to drag it out of them...I see the age you were in the accident ...My baby boy is going to be 22 in September ....He is not even dating ...I pray he will know the kindness and deep down caring of another individual other than a parent some day ..But most of all ...I pray people can see the kindness in his face like yours and like I can see it and especially when the good Lord is behind it...Then we know it is Good and well...God Bless all ways ...JoJoClose
Anniversary/ Momma
Today would have been yours and Jennifers' second wedding anniversary. You only had one short year together as man and wife. But, oh, what a year it was! The two of you shared more love and joy in that one year than most people experience in a lifetime. I'll never forget your wedding day. I only saw you THAT happy one other day in your life. That was the day Gabe was born. The day of your wedding, your face was so radiant. Your smile was bigger than ever, if that was possible. The service was so beautiful. I'll never forget how real God's presence was during the lighting of the unity candle and the chill bumps that ran over me. Several people talked about feeling the same thing during that time. I know that God knew that day what was to come. But I am so thankful that you experienced that joy, that love, that peace and contentment before you left this world. I know that you went to Heaven having fully experienced everything good this life had to offer. Why he took you so soon, we'll never know. Why he couldn't let you stay here a while longer, to continue to share that love with Jennifer and raise Gabe, we'll never know. But I do know that this world was better off for having you in it! I do know that I am a better person for having had the pleasure of calling you my child. I know that there is a little boy in this world that will inherit the heart and mind of a wonderful man that graced this world for just a short time, but left such a big imprint. Happy Anniversary, my son. I love you! Momma Close
my memories / Blake Jolley (passing through )
i recieved an email from a friend & right down the bottom was the link to here......
i lost my nephew 15 years ago to a motorbike accident.it was the most horrific event of my families life.i have sat here reading all the comments & well wishes.i am still crying.
there is no consolation nor is there an answer.he was loved & loved you all, he was a lucky man.
thoughts of you and yours / Sandra (friend) christmas has come and gone - although i didn't call your mom during the holiday didn't mean I didn't have her on my mind along with your family. I can't say I know how she feels, cause I have yet and pray that I Never know the emptiness inside that your family feels at this time .The hurt will never go away- only time will help them learn to cope with your untimely death . I just wanted you and yours to know that you and they are on my mind. I love your mom as if she was my little sister and just like any sister would want to do I wish i could take her hurt away,but this is one hurt where a hug and a kiss on the cheek won't ease the hurt/pain . I just hope you know how much you are missed and how much you are loved and always will be. Close
Merry Christmas Baby / Momma
To say the least, Christmas just wasn't the same this year! But we did spend the morning with Jennifer and Gabe. I got to help Gabe open his very first Christmas presents! But it was bittersweet. I kept thinking how you should have been there, bursting with more excitement than any kid. He had so much stuff he didn't know what to do with it all! Jennifer was beautiful, as usual! But it was so obvious how very much she was missing you. I do thank God for the wonderful Christmas we were able to share together last year; that was truly a blessing! I fixed Noah and Gabe's stockings. Yes, I gave Noah a light-up sword and a yo-yo. Wouldn't have been Christmas without 'em right? We went to eat at Huddle House and right beside where we sat was one of those claw machines with the stuffed animals in it. Sitting right in the front, looking straight at us, was your care bear wearing a santa hat. I know it was you saying "Merry Christmas family, I love you!" I believe that so many times, we don't see the things that tell us that our loved ones are still with us, watching over us. We didn't miss that one! Later, Joe and I went to the cemetary. Gee and Noah had put a Christmas tree there for you earlier. I left some Christmas flowers for you. I remember you telling me not long ago, how special Christmas always was to you. You never knew how much that meant to me because I always felt like the 3 of you never had enough or never got things the other kids got. But you said "Momma, we always had awesome Christmases!" Well baby, I hope you had an "awesome" Christmas this year, spending it with Jesus!
I miss you so much and the pain is still so bad! It still feels like my heart is just going to explode! People keep telling me it will get better with time. Well, I guess time's just got to show me, because it's been 7 months and it's not any better. I love you my precious, precious son! ---Momma Close
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